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The Hardest Quarter Thus Far

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 18, 2017, 5:17 PM

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... but I survived!

So, as usual, here is my quarter review!

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This time around I took Visual Storytelling 2 and an art history (Art Since 1945). I had been fearing this quarter for the last year as rumors about Vis 2 being extremely difficult were rampant. Just as suspected, they were correct. This was probably the most demanding quarter so far, and I am extremely happy I downgraded to 2 classes a quarter. I seriously do not think I could have done it taking the usual full load, especially if I was doing another studio. There's just no way.

The premise of the class was simple: come up with a 4-page comic. Redo it 3 times. Redo it without using the exact same panel layouts or camera shots/angles. If you accidentally repeat, you have to start over/you get points deducted. It doesn't seem that hard when you think about but god it's so hard. I remember it taking me an entire day to formulate just the right angles/panel layouts that didn't repeat, and they would still end up repeating. Gosh. GOSH.

Anyway, yeah, so that was horrible. But it ended up being worth it as I learned a lot about pushing myself and understanding stuff. I won't get into all the stuff I learned cause that would go on forever, but to suffice it to say, I feel my comic making skills have bumped up significantly this quarter alone. COMICS ARE HARD GUYS.

Then my paper for Art History, which was pretty much the main thing we did in that class, was really informative and interesting. I love writing, so that class wasn't nearly as hard and allowed me to put my best into the comic class. I haven't gotten grades back fully in either class yet, but I probably will after the weekend. So far I'm looking into getting A's in both so hurrah! The torture was worth it!

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As for what's next, I just got a couple things:
  • Finish up my edits/rewrites on my fic. So far I'm projecting to start posting parts up in January. I doubt anyone will care about it, but I'm proud of it so I'm doing it anyway.
  • TS, of course. Still have the next 6 pages in a mid-way limbo. Might redo some things on them now that I've been re-educated on how to not suck at comics. But least I'll have those likely done by the end of the year. Might give you guys a Christmas present and post one up before. No promises but maybe we can have a Christmas miracle!
  • Do some delightful background/layouts for a friend's senior film!

Anything else will just be treats. Only got a little over a month before the next quarter starts and it should hopefully be slightly less murdery.

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See ya peeps!

~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: My Fanfic Playlist
  • Reading: My fanfic (omg)
  • Playing: The Forest (aka Forest Dads)
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Coffee

Help With a Project!

Journal Entry: Mon Nov 6, 2017, 1:28 AM

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EDIT: I did my presentation today and it went awesome! Everyone's feedback helped make an extremely interesting discussion. My 20 minute presentation winded up almost touching an hour from the questions raised and comments mentioned on this topic and from your responses! Thanks dudes <3 I won't be replying to your comments but I appreciated every one of them! I don't need anymore comments but if you are just now seeing this and wanna chip in, feel free!

Greetings peeps! This is a little random but I need some help/feedback for an assignment I'm doing in class!

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Alright, so I'm writing a paper and doing a presentation on an artist named Oliver Laric. Long story short, he is a contemporary artist who's entire body of work consists of duplications, "rip-offs", and appropriated works of others. Sometimes his work is appropriated off of roman sculptures, other times music videos, animation, free-to-use images, or other artist's work.

His artist statement is vaguely that our society has always copied from our past, and that there is an emotion/connectivity/something in the art of duplication. He's stated "I don’t see any necessity in producing images myself — everything that I would need exists, it’s just about finding it."

What honestly stuck out to me about Laric was that I saw FURRY ART in his Untitled video that was shown here at SCAD's Museum of Art. "Why are there furries in a museum??" I exclaimed in excitement and confusion. Then I found out more about him and, well, here I am 8 weeks later writing a formal essay about him.

Oliver Laric Compared by AlfaFilly
Left: Oliver Laric's work in Untitled  Right: Original Photograph (not by Laric, source unknown)

There were several other furry-related artworks in the video that I KNOW he did not illustrate, along with essentially a huge array of works consisting of him tracing animations and morphing them into other things. Unfortunately this video is currently not online anywhere yet.

What I'd like from you guys is opinions:
What do you think of Oliver Laric's work?

Do you agree with his artist's statement?
Do you think he's just a thief? Why or why not?
Is his artwork still valid?

I'd like to discuss it in my presentation, particularly coming from the viewpoint of other artist's in the modern internet age.

Please check out the following content by him and comment on this journal with your thoughts! I appreciate it!

His website which has all his work to date:

~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: My Fanfic Playlist
  • Reading: My fanfic (omg)
  • Watching: Joel Livestreams from Vinesauce
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: H2O

New TS Prologue is Complete!

Journal Entry: Fri Aug 25, 2017, 2:52 PM

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Before I start, here's another reminder about the OCT I'm judging in!
Check it out if you've ever wanted to enter an OCT or have a thing for aliens!


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Great news dudes! I finally finished up the new prologue for The Selection! It's 6 pages technically, though 5 1/2 is a better number as one is a splash page. I finished it earlier this week and have just been waiting out telling people.

I'm not sure quite yet WHEN I'll be posting the new one. I had originally planned on posting it as soon as it was done but now I'm not sure. I think I might wait until September starts up to give me more time to build up the TS buffer before my next quarter. I really don't know. I plan on posting these pages closer together, maybe 3 pages for 2 weeks or 2 pages for 3 weeks? What do you guys think? I might make another poll about it.

This prologue has been a wild ride. It doesn't seem like much, but for those of you following me for a long time you'll know I tried redoing it several times over the years. I finally feel happy with this version!

With this in mind, I want to talk about the OLD prologue. While I don't hate the old prologue's art or story it's... it's just outdated. The process for The Selection in-canon is no longer what is shown and it's just a little... creepy? I've had people tell me how unnerving it was having a bunch of adults "grocery shop" for children and even have people accusing me of fetishizing older people x underage people which is honestly really stupid. You have to understand I wrote that prologue when I was 16 years old and I hadn't developed storytelling methods that well yet.

Is it really weird looking back on it now? Yeah, but I was young and inexperienced and didn't see anything wrong with it because I was clueless to things like that. Despite the alien environment, the accusations really hurt and it forced me to "age up" a lot of things about Ambivian culture. Kailani was originally 15 because Ambivians were considered adults at that age, but she's since been aged up to her early 20's. I made her 15 originally because I was 16 and that age was relatable to me. Nothing more, nothing yes. It really didn't go past that. :shrug:

Still, I can understand the weirdness of it, which is why I opted to change it. The core concept is still the same: people were forced into arranged marriages and the process began when they were children. But there is no more grocery-picking and no creepy borderline-pedophilia concepts. That's trashed and gone. Details on why the event took place and all that good stuff will be revealed in the new version.

This does mean, though, that I will be storing my OLD Prologue as soon as I start posting the new one. The only reason I kept the old one up was in case people really wanted to know context that Chapter 1 did not provide. I don't even link the prologue pages into Chapter 1 anymore because of how inaccurate everything is. I mean, even Federico's personality is vastly different. It's just. It's just bad. It needs to go.

Now I am still VERY PROUD of the old prologue. It was the first comic I had done completely by myself and in quick succession. It was the prologue that brought on responses from people that inspired me to continue the project. I'm also horribly nostalgic and I love my old work to pieces and hate the idea of having to store it away out of view. But, well, sometimes you gotta do whatcha gotta do. I can't risk new readers finding this and thinking it's canon lol

So if you'd like to give one final read of the trashy OLD NO LONGER ACCURATE prologue, save it, mourn it, laugh at it, etc. you may do so here:

R.I.P. Magic light beam and mean!Feddy.

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Stay tuned for the new, not-cringy (welly, maybe a little cringy) prologue!

~*~Filly B.~*~


  • Listening to: My Fanfic Playlist
  • Reading: My fanfic (omg)
  • Playing: Crash Bandicoot
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Coffee

dA is NOT Stealing Your Art!

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 5, 2017, 2:04 PM

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Before I start, here's another reminder about the OCT I'm judging in!
Check it out if you've ever wanted to enter an OCT or have a thing for aliens!


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Secondly, the infamous "deviantART has the right to your artwork! Leave now before it's too late!" Tumblr post has been recirculating lately.


dA is NOT stealing your stuff. You're fine. Please STOP spreading this rumor!

It's okay if anyone did. We are human and we make errors. I know I've spread rumors before when I didn't research it first.
I remember when the post first started up and how scared I was. Then I started researching it to see if it was true and, well, it wasn't.

If you've EVER reblogged that post, PLEASE set the record straight! In today's time, the drama ALWAYS carries more notes than the fix, and that's why this stupid rumor is STILL going around.
I always say to NEVER trust Tumblr to begin with. That site is honestly trash for news sources seeing how fast people overreact. Twitter too.

Here are some handy links to clarify the situation:

Response from the Artist

deviantART's response
Help Desk FAQ on the issue
Article describing the event

Seriously, guys, dA has PLENTY of issues we can complain about.
  • The fact they are shoddy at best at communicating with us.
  • The fact their reporting system for reposted/stolen/altered art is utter trash.
  • The fact that EVEN WHEN I BLOCK SOMEONE their art STILL appears in my "More From" section on MY artwork.
(I'm particularly salty about the last one)

But they are NOT stealing the rights to your work.

Please spread this around before more people are misinformed. This issue happened in 2014. That's over 3 years ago. Let's stop this already, it's getting ridiculous.

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That's all. Keep enjoying BOOM while I work on new TS Prologue!
I might stream tonight or tomorrow, so keep an eye out~

~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: YouTube Playlists
  • Reading: My fanfic (omg)
  • Watching: Myself write
  • Playing: Saurian
  • Eating: Egg
  • Drinking: Milk

New Alien-Themed OCT! + Updoot

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 19, 2017, 3:19 PM

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Greetings peeps! Exciting news!

My pal fluffyz has opened up a fresh new Original Character Tournament!
How hard would you fight to bring salvation to your people?

Xotiathon, or the Alien Olympics, provides the winner with any resource they ask for to bring back to their people. Water, food, precious metal, or even an energy source - any naturally occurring provision will be lavished upon the victor’s civilization. Xotiathon welcomes all alien species to face its challenges in the name of aiding their homeland!

XotiathonOCT is an aliens only, all media permitted OCT.

Xotiathon Judges by fluffyz

Myself and other pal ChimericMachinations are judges! Here is my little representation, a member of my Swivel race that I never talk about:
Judge Ref Janie by AlfaFilly

Auditions are open until October 20th! We accept all media.

So if any of you guys were fans of my Tapestry of Horror/Chordata series or my Chernobyl Curs/Caesar writings, check it out! OCTs are a lot of fun and get your creative juices flowing! I know I never regretted my time in them.

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In other news, I'm settled back home after visiting family. I tried to work best I could there, but I did not get to be as artsy as I wanted. But now I'll get straight to work and book it!
This week I'm planning to finish my owed Raffle Prize and one of my trades. In-between I'll be working on finalizing my sketches for the TS Prologue.

Next week I'll work exclusively on inking current TS pages and Prologue stuff. Sorry I haven't been posting much, but this is mostly why!

One good thing to note, my hand is about 98% back in shape! It only hurts now cause I strained it driving 7 hours on the interstate HA.

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How are you guys doing so far this summer? Comment about anything exciting! I wanna hear!

~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: YouTube Playlists
  • Reading: My own NaNo writing
  • Watching: Myself write
  • Playing: Far Cry 4
  • Eating: Homemade Beef Stew MMMMMMMMM
  • Drinking: Sweet Tea

A Meme About My Comics!

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 8, 2017, 11:18 PM

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Tagged by Nothofagus-obliqua! Written by FrostedCanid!

My comic:…

Uhhh my old comic that died:…

1. What got you started drawing comics?
I don't really know, I just did them! I recently went through my old art and I found samples from as early as 2002! The first comics I did were one-panel ones with my characters in little gags. I did just gags for ages until I started spreading to multiple panels. My old friend at the time (who I met in 5th grade) would often give me ideas and I would draw them since her humor was always a dozen times better than mine.

2. What is your favorite comic that you've read?
My favorite comic is always going to be Good Cheese by Kelly Hamilton. It's not the best comic, in fact it's fairly simple, but it really got me into the slice of life genre that sparked my The Selection comic.

3. Has there been a scene so far that has been particularly hard to capture in your current and/or past comics?
I can't think of any particular scene in The Selection so much as a character: Federico. Since his personality completely flipped from when he first showed up in my old prologue, I struggle with portraying him how he actually is because I know people still view him as his old self. But hopefully once I get rid of that old prologue I won't have to worry anymore.

Power of War uh... I remember struggling to draw a scene where the leader wolf was doing some big cool-guy speech. It shows. It's real bad.

4. How long did you wait before starting your current comic and/or comics in the past? (i.e. the writing/story development process)
For TS... literally, like, a day. I had my comic's premise in a dream and decided "LOL that'd be cool as a story", drew some character designs once and called them done, then started drawing. That's my biggest regret because wow that's a trash idea, guys. Never do that.

Power of War I had written a story about a year or two before. Then I decided to turn it into a comic since animal comics started becoming a thing then.

5. If you could have done anything differently when you were starting out, what would it be?
For TS... Definitely not started the next day. Make my designs simpler. Completely remove some of the characters.

For PoW... remove half the characters and develop a game plan to RENDER THE 10 ADDITIONAL SKETCHED PAGES THAT NEVER SAW THE LIGHT OF DAY.

6. Who is your favorite character to write?
Federico, funny enough, despite #3! I really like to write his interactions with others because he's so opposite of them.

7. Who is your least favorite character to write?
Tanner, cause finding that balance of sincerity and annoying comic-relief is hard.

8. How drastically did the story change since you started?
Oh, Creator. Let me give you some examples:

:bulletblue: The plot. Was completely. Different. Let me just... give you this synopsis I told a friend:

"Feddy was originally an abusive husband. He basically beat and mentally abused Kailani until she ran away with another man. Then that man was actually someone who worked for a cult who just pretended to love Kailani but actually just wanted her away from Feddy so he could kill her cause she was a hybrid 8) and Feddy like felt guilty I guess?? For being a big asshole and rescued her and then Kailani like developed Stockholm syndrome or something and loved him despite his faults and Feddy idk became kinda nice but was still an asshole."

None of this is it anymore. NONE OF IT 8)
Federico is a giant mush and would never do any of this. The cult is gone. There's no "other man". Just none of that. GOOD RIDDANCE.

:bulletblue: Kailani was really insanely smart. She's not stupid now, but she's like a C level student.
:bulletblue: The characters (minus Federico) were all shapeshifters. See here: TS: Once Upon a Time...
:bulletblue: Oh yeah, and Federico was the warden of a prison. That was a thing.

9. What are the major influences/inspiration for your comic and/or previous comics?
A lot of things inspired my TS comic. Music for one. The bands Skillet and RED (mostly RED) really helped me. My religious journey during high school and some of my personal journeys also really molded what it is. Can't really tell that now, but later portions really reflect a lot of it.

PoW was literally just me making a story based on my old friend and I getting in fights all the time LOL

10. What does your process look like?
• I script things, first of all. My scripts are fairly simple. I mention what I want a character to be doing/their expression then just have the dialogue.

• Then I do thumbnails. They are completely illegible.

• After that I grab a set number of pages, usually 4-6 and will start sketching. I bounce around to different pages to keep me focused!

• If a page has a complicated background, I will either skip the BG entirely and draw it digitally, I will digitally draw it, print it, and lightbox it onto the page, OR I will just scan in the whole page, sketch it into the page, and print the whole page to ink over. I use the perspective tool in Clip Studio and Sketchup to help me with BGs which is why I do this.

• I ink traditionally. I also bounce around pages for that! I use Micron pens. Though I'm still contemplating switching to using cleaned pencils for my lines but idk yet.

• Then I scan it and throw it on my page template. Clean it up.

• I used to color everything in Photoshop, but I'm trying to move over to Clip Studio.


 And start over.

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Not tagging but do it if ya like!

~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: I Will Survive - Gloria Gaynor
  • Reading: My own NaNo writing
  • Watching: Myself write
  • Playing: Nothing D8
  • Eating: HUNGRY
  • Drinking: Lemonade

Summer Adventures Await!

Journal Entry: Fri Jun 2, 2017, 12:29 AM

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It's that time again: time for yet another end of the quarter review!

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This quarter was the first quarter I dropped down to two classes. This resulted in some... mixed results. And it's a little hard to explain.

I was less busy this quarter overall. My one class (Self-Publishing) had a constant flow of content but it wasn't very art-intensive and my other one (Advanced Storyboarding) was consistent and fairly average for a studio. Yet somehow I found myself not feeling motivated to work on miscellaneous work outside of classes. I think it was a mixture of burn out (FWA was a week after classes started AND I had just gotten off of doing BOOM) and going through another existential crisis. In my Self-Publishing class we frequently talked about such things, and the fact we had to essentially brand ourselves kinda sent all of us into a "Oh no. What am I doing with my life?" feel.

Because in truth I KNOW what I want. But is what I want logical or even possible?
My dream is to self-publish and become self-sustaining off my own work. I want to build up a community, I want to expand my worlds, I want to tell the stories I want to tell and collaborate and express. Then settle with some minor job on the side to make ends meet. I've mentioned this before. I don't have extravagant dreams.

So branding myself around all that was sort of... hard. I didn't want to tell my classmates "Um, yeah I wanna tell stories about alien furries, animal monster, and sometime an androgynous queer guy who comes in various AUs." I guess I felt ashamed? Topics like furries are like anime, they are taboo and not "real art". At least that's what I thought.
As it turns out, I got an overwhelming amount of support. My professors and classmates alike were very adamant that if I wanted it, it was possible. Apparently my "brand" of talking animal genre is not typical and is unique to my own. Which I honestly found rather surprising. I never really saw my stuff as being that original. But also who really does? Is Sparkle Alien my new brand? MAYBE.

The last couple weeks gave me some confidence, though, which is what really boosted me to make something grand for my Storyboarding final. Which, if you haven't yet, can be watched here!

No Honor Among Thieves FILM by AlfaFilly

I was also rather sad this quarter because we learned my professor was leaving SCAD to go on to another school. She's the only female sequential professor and that's just kind of depressing in its own right. We need more awesome ladies in the field (especially since 60% of the seqa department is female) and it's such a shame. But also she's going to be going on to teach more awesome people. So I'm glad I got to experience her.

She actually illustrated a graphic novel recently that's very very awesome if anyone is interested:…

Overall, this was a quaint but enjoyable quarter. I'm looking forward to next quarter, where I get to start doing serious comics in Visual Storytelling 2. Oooh boooy.

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Some random highlights of the quarter:

  • FWA (my first furry con) was frikkin awesome and now I'm addicted.
  • In addition, I got to experience a couple other con activities via my class.
  • I met people who have known me online for yearssss in person!! Including some who go to my school! LIKE WHAAAT.
  • Banana Cat.
  • I became a fangirl again. I'm still kinda weirded out by that. I'm such a grump to fandoms now-a-days and I don't understand. What do?? How??

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So with that over, on to summer plans!
As always these plans are tentative and may or may not happen. But these are the "ideal" goals.

First, be chill for a week and rest up. I really want to search through all my old art bins cause I'm dying to find some gems a-la middle school. I'll probably post some up if I find some good ones lol

Here's some things I'd like to do:
  • Continue The Selection of course. Build another buffer, hopefully an even bigger one. I got a bit stalled recently since I was debating changing the art style again. I dunno. I'll keep experimenting probably.
  • Finish The Selection Prologue since my original plans for that got punched out of me when I took my Concept class last quarter. OOPS.
  • Finish ANY and ALL owed work (mostly trades).
  • Make some long-overdue references for my characters. I finally sketched images for TS characters. WOW RIGHT?
  • Do Ambivian reference sheet finally because PLEASE THAT'S LIKE 10 YEARS BELATED.
  • More YCH and Adopts maybe. I need to make dat cash.

Otherwise, just shenanigans. All the shenanigans.

Are you guys ready for summer? What're your summer plans?

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~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: Roar - Katy Perry
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing D8
  • Eating: HUNGRY
  • Drinking: Coffee at 3 am

Characters in a Meme, Hurray!

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 29, 2017, 7:01 PM

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A meme to keep things active around here! I'm trying to consciously post as often as I can and it's been crazy difficult. How did I do it back in the day? Did I have no life? Well. Yeah. Pretty much.

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Anyway, before the meme, a quick update. Things are weird around here. I feel like I have everything to do while simultaneously free time? But then I don't have free time because I need to work? It's so weird. My Advanced Storyboarding class is fairly simple: we have an assignment and then we finish the assignment, then we move onto the next. But my Self-Publishing class is like... 5 assignments simultaneously. They all overlap and it's jarring to keep track of. I need to work on Unit 3 but also Unit 5 but Unit 5 comes before Unit 4? And I think there's a Unit 6 but I don't remember? What.

Editor's Day is also coming up and I've been toiling over what to print and what to fix for print and oh boy it's a headache. And also the stress of "omg portfolio reviews are they gonna think my art is garbage? Yeah probably." So excuse my absence in things like The Selection for awhile. Once things make some semblance of organization I'll continue onward. For now I feel strangely guilty working on personal projects because (I think?) I need to work on homework. Uh. It's weird. This is a very weird quarter.

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Character meme thing tagged by FeralGator! I think I was tagged for another meme too but I can't remember...? Ah well! Let's go!
I'm also going to use this as an excuse for linking some gift art/trades/commisions of said characters!

1. Your Fursona/Persona!

Your character that represents you!
The Alfas: Filly Reference by AlfaFilly

Filly of course! I'm linking a lot of things cause idk I can't pick dawg.

Solidarity -gift- by Songdog-StrayFang More Cowbell by Ramvling THE BEST stickers by StupidShepherd Sunlight of Spring by CocoaPEBBLES Dance Filly! by Mongrelistic

Though I also want to include Picard since he has a lot of traits very similar to me, and I consider him my fursona within the furry community a little bit more for reasons.
Picard Ambivian Reference Sheet by AlfaFilly

Ych naughty present by louizim Surprise cuddles! by StupidShepherd [ADVENT] Day 13 by CassMutt

2. Your 'Guardian Angel'
You protect yourself through them, vent through them etc, they keep you strong.
You probably have a deep emotional connection with this character.

I Confess by AlfaFilly

Picard 100%! He means a lot to me and I've found venting through him has been very beneficial over the years, or drawing him doing stupid crap has helped my cope with things.
Linda is a close second, her old version anyway. She meant the world to me and I used her all the time to express myself. But I don't want to link any pictures of that version of her here.

COM - Picard and Audrey by Sylthian Peanut And Russian by StupidShepherd Sleepy Snek by Ekatii


3. Your Sunshine!
A character that never fails to make you smile. Maybe they have bright colors.
or maybe they are very cute. A character who's your own personal sun.

Spirit Reference Sheet by AlfaFilly
Golden Ray of Sunshine by AlfaFilly

Definitely Spirit! They are too sweet and innocent for this world (and the second picture is conveniently titled!)
Also linking a lot cause the world needs more sweet.

Weaving Dreams by MoonsongWolf Trade: Cloud Jumper by Aunumwolf42 NYOOOM by StupidShepherd Filly- Spirit by CorvusRaven Spirit by Canis-ferox

4. The Odd One
The odd ball character you're not sure why you have, but you treasure them deeply. Perhaps because they're just so weird?

Mynnie Reference Sheet by AlfaFilly
Walking Into Nowhere by AlfaFilly

Probably Mynnie! He was made one day because I wanted to draw a skeleton monster. Then he became a thing.

Giftember - Day 14 - AlfaFilly by DragonLoverTori Art Raffle Winner 2 by fluffyz [Comm] Mynnie by Pickleweasel360

5. Sentimental Value
Okay, now who has the most sentimental value? Maybe a character you received from a friend, or who you have fond memories of. Perhaps they're very old?

Nelthilta Reference Sheet by AlfaFilly
Redraw of 'Nelthilta Chibi' by AlfaFilly

Nelthilta for sure! She's not my oldest character, but she had such a complex development and went through dozens of phases. She started as a self-insert fan character for Invader Zim, was written into a fanfic, then became my secondary sona for awhile... then she got her own original story that has since been reworked countless times. She was the origin of Ambivians and without her story The Selection wouldn't exist. So I owe a lot to this particular sparkle alien!

Nelthilta by ChimericMachinations ReverendAspen Commission by SprayPaintHavoc possessed by Sardonicism

6. The fancy one!
Your flashiest character! Probably the prettiest one or the one with the most fancy design.

Official New!Linda Concept Sheet by AlfaFilly
You Work Too Hard by AlfaFilly

OKAY WELL I could easily put Kailani or Garin in for "fancy" designs because of their complexity... but Linda is 100% the prettiest in my opinion, despite being the simplest!

Sexy Raptor by fluffyz AT: What a hot by Herobula

7. The rare one!
'The rarity' How about a character you're so surprised you actually managed to get.
You probably won't be letting go of them anytime soon!

DELIGHT! by AlfaFilly
Kalkita 001 by louiadopts

I guess this is more relevant to adoptables so I'll include Jones! He was a a custom species done for me by louizim of their awesome species!
I also got this little guy in a trade that I find just as adorable and can't wait to get to draw:
Gorgon 021 by louiadopts

8. Weird Attachment

Upside Down by AlfaFilly

Maybe Hurvy? I have a complex relationship with his character. I love him conceptually, I love his dynamic between my sona and him in their storyverse, and I love his backstory. But his personality is extremely bland and it's been challenging to rework him over the years. I think about him often and how he works, but at the end of the day he's just kind of a boring guy. But I am attached to him and refuse to let him go or fall into development oblivion, even if all that work goes on exclusively in my head.
Commission- HURRRRRRRRRRRvy by StupidShepherd

9. The Fandom character
You heard me! Everyone's got one, fork them over!

New vs Old... of d00m! by AlfaFilly
Garin Reference by AlfaFilly

Garin 8)
He started as an Invader Zim FC and he didn't really stray far off from the sparkle mess that he was. But now he's all mine and I can say "Yeah, I own that sparkle mess completely."
These fanarts are a million years old but I'm linking them anyway:
Winter Garin Contest Entry by Berndem-Bones GiftArt:Garin's Irkivian Love by kittydemonchild AlfaFilly contest entry by Aleiki

10. The newbie
Okay who just joined your family of characters? Let's see them!

Dinosaur Project Cast by AlfaFilly
BOOM Pitch Sneak Peeks by AlfaFilly

These dudes, technically! They're so new I still find it weird saying that they are mine.

Boom! by xLugiaLuver1x

I Tag
:iconstupidshepherd: and ANYONE ELSE!

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I dunno what I should draw. TIME TO FIGURE IT OUT.

~*~Filly B.~*~

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Journal Entry: Mon Apr 10, 2017, 8:19 PM

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Good and bad things to talk about today. Namely my recent adventures at Furry Weekend Atlanta and the Marly situation. I will be updating the Marly journal after this one so go here for details if you haven't read them already:

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Before I start, anytime I say "we" I mean myself and StupidShepherd (just for clarification).

So let's get the bad news out of the way first so we can end with something good. Today we went to take Marly to the vet for her consultation with the surgeon. Turns out we had the option to actually have the amputation surgery today. We were in a bit of a shock since we did not expect that. While we weren't emotionally ready for it, we decided it was a blessing in disguise and decided to go through with it. We knew if we rescheduled it that Pyro would be on an emotional edge waiting for the day to come, like a horrible impending countdown. And Marly despises the vets so one less trip the better.

Despite the shock of it all, we did it and it's done. She went into surgery around 2:30 today and got done around 4:00? The amputation was a success and Marly was already apparently awake (and grumpy). Now we just have to wait for her to recoup at the vet for a couple days. Wednesday is a good estimate for when we will get her home.

The best news about this is that she is now completely cancer-free.

In regards to the bill... we took out money from savings to pay the $2,600 deposit and will pull out more for the rest. We will continue with our Marm Fund to make it up since that money is rather important until Pyro can get a job. Just so we are transparent in letting people know what's going on with all that. We have the money technically it's just that we kinda also don't have the money since we have to pay it back (our parents are helping). It's a weird situation but I hope that at least makes sense!
The bill for proof

We set up a GoFundMe which hasn't gotten much traction but I figure I would link it anyway. We've been much more successful with commissions and generous donations on here. But at least we have options!

Once again I want to thank EVERYONE who has donated or purchased things! We can never thank you enough and I really wanna do something special for everyone when I get free time!

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And now happy news. FWA!

I was going into it not knowing what to expect. I have a strange relationship with the furry fandom. I love them. I hate them. I think they're cringy. I think they're awesome. It's just very complex, and always has been since I've been in this fandom since 2004, whether in-denial or not (does everyone go through a "GAIS IM NOT A FURRY IM ANTHRO!" phase?). And while I still don't like to label myself furry, I can still say I'm in the fandom, and after this convention I think any doubts I may have had are long gone. FWA was amaaaaazing.

The hotel was super swanky and awesome and the staff were fabulous, patient, and many even curious about the con. They kept asking us "What's your costume?" and we were like "We don't have one" and they seemed disappointed aha. FWA staff did an amazing job as well. The theme this year was "Game On" and they definitely pulled the theme into all the decorations and whatnot. And things were way more organized than I imagined. They definitely know what they're doing!

As always, the fursuits were amazing. I took pics of a lot of my favorites. I always had conflicts on fursuits. I adore them aesthetically but often thought they were really cringy when people acted "cutesy" in them. But when you're in a setting among a bunch of folks who are into that sorta thing, it's not even remotely cringy at all. It's fun and adorable and I was totally down with it! And the fursuit dance competition was frikkin raaaad. I can't get over it still. Videos online really don't capture the audio very well, guess it's just something you have to be in there for to really get into. But I'll link my favorite dances below! As far as if I ever wanna suit... well, time will tell on that.
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The Artist Alley is where we spent most of our time, between 10:00-3:00 Saturday and Sunday. While we didn't make bank, we DID make a hefty amount! We learned our mistakes this time and what to do differently the next. My biggest issue was mostly that I need to try out colored things (watercolor maybe?) and I need more examples. I keep forgetting I don't draw a lot of common animals that people could envision their characters in. So next year I'll go in with a better binder of samples. I was really pleased with a lot of the feedback I got from folks, though, on what they enjoyed about my work! It was very very flattering! I would really like to do something with my comic next year too to promote it.

Best of all was the general atmosphere of the place. Everyone was so incredibly friendly. I've been to a handful of conventions before, mostly local, though one was fairly big, and it PALED in comparison to how kind everyone was here. It's like you could be friends with everyone. I met and spoke with so many amazing people while sitting in the alley or running into the elevators. I definitely have some folks I need to track down on FA after this just from the wonderful conversations I held with them.

And!! Awesome of all!! I got to meet the fabulous :iconyesterlove:! Which is LITERALLY AMAZING because we have known each other through deviantART for the 10 years I've been on here! We grew up through our cringy teen years on here so it was really cool to get to meet in person! I really wish we could have talked longer! With hope we can meet again in the future and make more awesome memories! I also told him super secret things I want to do for the future. Maybe. If I can round up the courage. We will see... B)

And to the others I met in person, including the person who said they've followed my comic since the beginning (your name escapes me but you know who you are!!) it was amazing meeting you too!! I really wish I could have talked more as well at the time! If you ever go again PLEASE definitely find me because you were so nice and your support of my dumb comic makes me wanna cry :heart:

To anyone who talked with me, I'm sorry if I rambled on and on or was awkward at all! I do that thing where I continuously talk or say dumb shit to prevent pauses in conversations. And I get distracted by others talking. I can't talk with more than one at a time OH LAWD. So thank you for putting up with my awkwardness and ignore if I said stupid things!

Honestly, the only real negatives I had about the con were fairly small. Some people were a little too cringy for my taste, namely when they were drunk. I guess drunk people are only fun when you're also drunk? I dunno, man, I don't find it funny. Then we were both rather unprepared for how things would work time-wise. We never got to see any panels we wanted to see, we kept forgetting to eat and when we remembered it was so late that the food court was closed so we had to just eat the snacks we brought (we ate at Hard Rock the first night but we wanted to be cheap the other two days so we declined going to restaurants), and just essentially did not organize right at all. We will hopefully improve upon that next time. And lastly, the worst thing was uh... well. People thought it would be a good idea to "start a howl". At midnight. And 2 am. Guys, please, don't do that. People need to sleep. Not everyone is into all-nighters and THERE WERE NON-FURRIES AT THE HOTEL TOO. People like that give the fandom a terrible name and that's what gets conventions cancelled when the hotels can't stand it anymore. Apparently the elevators kept breaking too, though why I don't know. I guess excessively using them? I mean, I imagine they would get worn out when there was a con over over four thousand people going up and down frequently. 

All in all I had a great time. We ended up calculating everything up, and counting the profits the two of us made in the alley and pre-order badges Pyro did prior to the con, we not only made back ALL the money we spent for the FWA fund BUT ALSO we made a little bit of profit! All of which went straight into the Marm Fund! Obviously this made us feel a good deal less guilty about going in the first place.

I am so, so happy I got to go. It was a huge stress relief from this year and was just an amazing experience. I am absolutely addicted now and, if it hasn't been clear already, I'm already planning for next year. Thank you, FWA, for being an awesome furry con :heart:

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Keep praying for Marly if you can, I'll keep everyone updated. And as always, thank you for the endless support :iconbigheartplz:

~*~Filly B.~*~

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  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing D8
  • Eating: NOTHING DD8
  • Drinking: I... need water.

Another Quarter Complete: SUCCESS!

Journal Entry: Tue Mar 14, 2017, 9:15 PM

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Temporarily putting the cat cancer stuff to the side for today; will continue with stuff this week and onward, but let's take a small break for now.
Information on that can still be found here:

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Anyway, as the title says, another quarter has wrapped up via today! I like to give my thoughts on it each time so this is no different.

This quarter was my last taking three classes, starting next I'm dropping to two since they will be more intense ones. I took Visual Storytelling 1, Conceptual Illustration, and 3D Design. Three studios! Which is hella huge NOPE NOPE NOPE by any art student standards. However, 3D wasn't intended to be a work-heavy class nor one where I had to do a lot of drawing so I figured it would be manageable. Turns out I was right!

3D was the dreaded class I put off repeatedly because the thought of making things was terrifying to me, mostly because AlfaShampoo-Artemis told me her story of 3D that involved saws. And saws breaking off. And hands getting cut. Despite being completely different schools the thought still terrified me. So I chose a professor recommended to me by a friend and she was fantastic! Totally down to earth, understandable, just a lot of fun. Also no saws. I enjoyed her class immensely and loved going in every day. The projects were extremely fun too. I've posted them around my other sites already but I'll make a big compilation here sometime.

Vis 1 was pretty standard. The class consisted mostly of "here's a prompt, make a comic of it". While I did very much enjoy the class, none of the work that came out of it I would call... great. By any means. I don't particularly know why, just wasn't feeling any of them. I could theoretically spiffy them up as portfolio pieces but ehhh. Don't even think I'd post them online. Except the last assignment which was comic strips. That was some good stuff and I'll definitely post those up sometime. All-in-all, the best thing about Vis 1 was the class itself. The professor is one of my favorites and going in is just like going into a great big dad joke. And I love it.

Conceptual Illustration was by far my most successful class. Maybe it's because I got to do things I really enjoyed a-la colorful characters, dinosaurs, my own worldbuilding, animals, etc? I just really enjoyed this class. It was intensely work heavy (which was likely why Vis 1 stuff fell a little flat) and minus some of the redesign challenges we had to do (which I liked in theory and would love to try again, just... I want to do it with stuff I actually know something about) I had zero complaints. The professor is great, also one of my favs. He critiques in ways that make you think about your work critically while making it mold to your vision. Also I'm extremely happy with my Boom story, and despite it not being my usual stuff I definitely want to keep it in my pitch folder if the contest doesn't work out.

I also found I insanely love making art books. I just want to draw more crap for my own stories just so I can make them into art books now. Strange motivation I suppose...?

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Classes aside, honestly the worst part of this quarter was the cat cancer. Still kind of reeling from that. It's certainly not a good start to the 2017 year, but the kindness I've seen has absolutely helped tremendously. It shows there's hope out there.

Minor negatives were results of unexpected stuff. TS prologue didn't get finished like I wanted because the workload for this year was too much. Boom comic isn't touching done because of the cat cancer stuff delaying it. I have been proud of myself for getting TS updates on time. Minus tomorrow/today's update not happening due to my finals, I'm super happy with how I've been doing with it! As I write this I'm beginning the next set of pages and working on Boom simultaneously. Gonna try my darnedest to get stuff done over Spring break.

Got one and a half weeks of break ahead before my next quarter. I'll be taking Self-Publishing and Advanced Storyboarding next quarter. Excited for those!

My only worry now is keeping my body in shape. My hand's been giving me some issues this quarter. I know it's not carpal tunnel since it's not affecting my wrist, and I've had wrist pain in the past. This is mostly affecting my finger joints and the bendy parts of my palm. 100% sure it's from holding pens stupid and pressing too hard with my mechanical pencil. I know this mostly because when I do personal work I don't have this kinda pain because I do stuff super loosely.
Neck pain is a constant for me and there's little to do about that but it still sucks.

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I think that's... about it. Standard journal is standard!

Thank you guys for your support once again. I appreciate it more than you know :heart:
~*~Filly B.~*~

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  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Sly 2: Band of Theives
  • Eating: PB&J
  • Drinking: Coffee


Journal Entry: Fri Mar 3, 2017, 10:00 PM

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Marm02 by AlfaFilly

EDIT 5, 4/13: Marly came home to us Wednesday/yesterday and so far she is doing excellent! She's been moving around a good bit and, although she struggles, we can tell she is constantly improving! Her appetite isn't 100% back since she isn't eating her dry food much yet, but she's eating her wet eagerly and her treats. Maybe she is just milking it for treats.

Either way, things are going well! Here's a video Pyro took of her this morning!…

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EDIT 4, 4/10: Today we went to take Marly to the vet for her consultation with the surgeon. Turns out we had the option to actually have the amputation surgery today. We were in a bit of a shock since we did not expect that. While we weren't emotionally ready for it, we decided it was a blessing in disguise and decided to go through with it. We knew if we rescheduled it that Pyro would be on an emotional edge waiting for the day to come, like a horrible impending countdown. And Marly despises the vets so one less trip the better.

Despite the shock of it all, we did it and it's done. She went into surgery around 2:30 today and got done around 4:00? The amputation was a success and Marly was already apparently awake (and grumpy). Now we just have to wait for her to recoup at the vet for a couple days. Wednesday is a good estimate for when we will get her home.

The best news about this is that she is now completely cancer-free.

In regards to the bill... we took out money from savings to pay the $2,600 deposit and will pull out more for the rest. We will continue with our Marm Fund to make it up since that money is rather important until Pyro can get a job. Just so we are transparent in letting people know what's going on with all that. We have the money technically it's just that we kinda also don't have the money since we have to pay it back (our parents are helping). It's a weird situation but I hope that at least makes sense!
The bill for proof

We set up a GoFundMe which hasn't gotten much traction but I figure I would link it anyway. We've been much more successful with commissions and generous donations on here. But at least we have options!

This weekend we will likely hold another PWYW stream. I might join this time so keep an eye out! Thank you everyone for your support :heart:

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EDIT 3, 3/7: So it's been a bit since I last updated on the Cat Cancer situation. So let me fill everyone in!

First things first, I've thanked everyone already but there's NEVER enough times I can say it! THANK YOU THANK YOU to every single person who donated! We are still blown away at the amount we've gotten!

So at current, we have all the existing bills paid off with some extra started for the next set of bills. The past few weeks we have been monitoring the tumor to judge its growth. I noticed it's gotten a bit larger since we first diagnosed it. It's still fairly small, about the size of a fingertip, but it definitely has increased in size. Monday we took Marly back in for a reevaluation and the vet confirmed the tumor on her foot is, in fact, growing steadily. He couldn't tell us how fast but he finally joined us on amputation being the best choice for her, despite that the foot is currently not bothering her. We just do not want to risk it. So we set up an appointment to have a consultation with the surgeon for April 10th. On that day we will schedule the actual amputation.

So this brings us to an issue Pyro and I have been having. For roughly 2 years now Pyro and I have been planning to attend our first furry convention, Furry Weekend Atlanta. We've had our hotel booked since November and had our money saved up for it since then. Those costs were set aside in a misc fund that we wouldn't touch. Despite this kitty situation, we decided we would leave the funds untouched unless we needed them. Now that the existing bills are out of the way and we have a good start on the surgery costs, there hasn't been a need to touch those funds. 

We have been fighting whether or not we wanted to continue going or not since the cancer situation started. We did not know what to do as we had a lot of moral conflicts. Should we really go, despite that we could use this money for the surgery? Would it seem jerkish to go after so many awesome people donated to help Marly? Would that be like a slap in the face? Obviously we were leaning to not going at all for this reason.

However, we have lately had a change of mind regarding it. This year has sucked so far. Like, shit. Pyro has been stressed beyond normal reason between the cancer and being unable to find a job outside of commissions. I haven't been able to do nearly as much to help out because of school and my comic pitch that I've been non-stop working on since December. We also have misc issues going on in our personal lives, such as Pyro's aunt also having cancer (in a very very bad stage). Cancer sucks, man.

So we figure... we really need a break. Like, we really need a break. Since our local Swarmcon got cancelled this year (where we both we planning on selling at), FWA is really going to be our one attempt to network and sell some stuff via their open artist's alley. Since we already have the hotel, food, gas, etc. costs set aside, any profits we make from that will go towards the surgery fund.

And maybe we can finally have some fun and destress after all this crap. We just... really need a vacation. So we decided we are still going to attend.
We still feel a bit guilty about it, even if our reasons are justified...

This weekend we are going to go ahead and setup the GoFundMe, that way we can advertise it alongside the prints and commissions at FWA. And when we get back we wanna double up on giving people things worthy of their money. Since our PWYW stream went so well, we are wanting to do that again.

I just hope this is okay for you guys? We would never, ever want to ruin what we've accomplished with all this. You guys are so amazing and disappointing or offending you is the last thing we want!
If anyone would like to voice concerns please feel free.

I will update again on this when we get the consultation done on the 10th. Thanks everyone!

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EDIT 2: Greetings all! Quick update on the situation.

First of all I can't thank people enough for their support, kind comments, donations, and purchases! It's been amazing! Beyond amazing. At current we have successfully paid off the biopsy and are working towards the rest. We will be mailing packages out sometime this week once we get a couple more confirmations that way we can mail everyone's in one stop since the post office is a ways out of the way.

We also got our estimates on the surgeries. As mentioned, the effective radiation treatment is out of our price range and current means. The second radiation is still up in the air but we just don't want to trust in a method that has such little studies done on it (I'm starting to get really upset that kitties are cared for so much less than dogs in the research department...). So amputation is the one that's going to be our likely choice, however, the vet wants to wait a month before doing it because morally he doesn't think cutting off the leg would be good when the leg is causing her no problems. But we can't wait around forever because the tumor will spread, though he claims it won't become detrimental for another couple months minimum. Either way, she has an appointment at the end of the month to reevaluate. We did get estimates for everything, though, and the amputation itself is going to be around $2900-$3500 + another $200 for more xrays + another $200 for an additional doctors visit. So by the time we get everything said and done it'll round up to around $4k including the bills we still have yet to pay.

We are postponing the GoFundMe until after we 100% decide. In the mean time we are going to continue what we are doing. Prints will remain on sale until then, I got some adoptables I'll be rolling out next week or this weekend, we still plan on streaming we just haven't figured out when yet, and YCHs will come when we catch free time. I need to set my priorities on my 12 page comic pitch at the moment, so that's going to be my #1 but I'm going to try to schedule around so I can fit in Marm Fund stuff.

I'm updating everyone on this so it's very transparent what's going on. I'm relieved we have a bit more time to make up the money, even if it is stressful.

Again, thank you so much to all those who have been supporting us and sharing our posts! Once again, here are all the links to the post if you'd like to help share:

Twitter post | Tumblr post | Instagram Post | FurAffinity Post

You guys are awesome and I love you all ;n; :iconbigheartplz:

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EDIT 1: First fundraiser submissions has been posted!

Greetings all, this time I bring you... not so good news. But I want to explain what's going to happen the next few weeks.

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As many of you know, my cat Sabrina and I live with StupidShepherd and their cat Marly. Both our cats are around the same age, being 7 & 8. Early February we discovered a small lump on Marly's hind right foot, a bit behind her large pawpad on the hock. We took her in for a biopsy and it came back as malignant. After going to a local vet oncologist it was made apparent the tumor was something in the type of a Nerve Shaft tumor. This is a good and bad thing. It's good because the tumor is slow growing and because we caught it so early it is located only in the foot and nowhere else (we even got an xray just to be safe). The bad news is that the tumor type is difficult to remove because of its nature of spreading like tree roots rather than balling outward in a mass. This makes getting rid of all those microscopic tendrils entirely impossible with just surgery.

We are left with very few treatment options. Chemo does not do anything to these tumors except slow their growth so we completely rule this option out. The next option is surgery + radiation treatment. There are few positives to this. No place here has radiation so we would have to drive 5 hours away and dump her off at a vet for over a month straight to receive the surgery and do daily radiation treatments under light anesthetics. And even then the chances of it killing all of it is not certain since apparently there are fewer incidents of this done on cats compared to dogs. As if that wasn't miserable enough, the cost is out of our capabilities, being upwards of 7-10k. As college students, this is not a good number.

There is the option of surgery + a lighter type of radiation that is significantly cheaper (something like 400~ per session) but considerably less effective. We would still have to dump her off somewhere but it wouldn't be for a month.

That leaves us with amputation. It is 98% effective (the few percent to count the rare possibility of another tumor showing up somewhere else). It would be much cheaper, but still expensive, ranging in the 1-2k ballpark. It's heartbreaking thinking about having to do this, even if we know and have seen numerous cases of cats being more than fine on three legs. It's hard imagining it, still, if not a little guilty.

We don't know yet which option we want to do (it's somewhere between the last two), but regardless we are going to have to raise money to treat her. Her current bills are already over the 1k mark between the exams, specialists, x-rays, and biopsy. I will show screenshots below as proof.

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So over the next few weeks we will be holding a fundraiser to raise money for her treatment! I'll be reselling my comics and prints along with some new prints made specifically for this. Once my queue clears up I will probably be taking some commissions. Pyro will as well! They will all be Pay What You Want (PWYW) with a minimum set price but you may donate more if you wish! After we officially decide what we want to do, we will make up an estimate and post it, possibly rallying up a GoFundMe. We both feel really bad accepting donations, which is why we want some options for those to receive things in return, but we don't have much of a choice in the matter. I have to pay for school and Pyro has to pay bills. We will accept donations through Ko-Fi too! Any little bit will help!

I wanted to put up this journal explaining the situation first. Expect to see more posts about it in the future. When we do, we would really appreciate folks spreading it around, even if you can't donate!

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To say it's been a tough month would be an understatement. I know it could be a lot worse, and we are very lucky, but it's still really, really sucky. If you could, please send support to StupidShepherd They really need it!

If anyone has ever had a pet with cancer, or had amputations, I would greatly appreciate your input or advice.
Thanks everyone :heart:
~*~Filly B.~*~

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How Good Is My Art, For Real?

Journal Entry: Sat Feb 4, 2017, 7:57 PM

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Greetings again all! I wanted to share the experience I had the last few days at my sequential department's annual Comics Art Forum and present you all a question at the end! Skip ahead if you want, you know how I like to ramble.

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So as I mentioned in a recent status post, I had the honor of having my portfolio reviewed by professional artists! But the backstory to this: every year my department holds a Comics Art Forum and Editor's Day, both of which are opportunities for students to get their work critiqued by professional artists and editors in the industry. This is a way to get feedback, make connections (the beauty of networking), and even get hired if your work is stupendously impressive. I completely chickened out on it last year, believing that my work wasn't strong enough since the only portfolio-worthy pieces I had were Graphic Design related and that's not really beneficial. And it's not like I could show them a batch of furry art cause let's be real. I did, however, attend the panels and workshops and learned a lot from those so this year I made it my goal to participate more!

So I signed up, whipped up a small 7-page portfolio and prepped myself. The artists came in to talk during some of our classes and, of course, I always get amazed at how chill they are. Literally they're just grown up children. This year we had the INSANELY down to earth Scott C. who I knew from his book Great Showdowns and whose watercolor I envy (he was also the art director on Psychonauts), the energetic and lovely Taneka Stotts who is a colorist, inker, editor, and writer for LGBTQ+ and PoC comics (and she makes it her mission to tear down the way the industry treats us artists like garbage), the super cool Dave Montes who works with game development, and Bernard Chang who is a master of comics and is currently working on Batman Beyond (the comic). I put extra emphasis on Scott and Taneka because those two were the ones who reviewed me!

Before the reviews, though, Taneka, Scott, and Dave came into my Conceptual Illustration class where my professor decided "lol I'm gonna make you guys pitch your stories to them!" to which we all went "OH SH*T". I was picked second and had to give an impromptu pitch of my doomsday dinosaur story while the professor pulled up the turnarounds on the screen. I kept it short because less is more, all the while dying a little bit inside. To my surprise, they really really liked it. They gave plenty of good feedback and I was, and kinda still am, in shock.

So then yesterday comes along when I do my reviews. Poor Scott was drained since my slot was near the end, but he still was able to give me a ton of really strong feedback! Lots of advice for things I never would have even THOUGHT of! The most important bit to me was about my environments and how, though they're good, would improve by "immersing yourself in them, understanding them, making them just as big a character as the characters" which I really loved hearing because it just made sense. Then there were other little things like consistency, anatomy, etc. He really encouraged the idea to try storyboarding more, as it would benefit to improving my angles and dynamacy.

Then the glorious Taneka: I was last in her queue but despite this she was just as hyper and excitable as ever. Literally she's just kind of amazing? Anyway, she gave me some fantastic advice on choosing my colors, creating stronger values, improving my contrast, and setting up comic documents. And she also very very much encouraged me to stick with the dinosaur story because she remembered it from the previous day's pitch (Scott did as well). So I think 100% if nothing comes out of the contest I'm entering it for, I will do something with it after. Who would have thought a little fart of a story would actually be... not complete crap? A funny bit she also told me was to not be ashamed to work in whatever medium or material works best for me... including copy paper. Because I do all my comics on copy paper and always hated admitting it because it was "unprofessional" to not do it on Bristol. She said to not even care, that professionals do the same. So SUCK IT BRISTOL I HATED YOU AND ALWAYS HAVE.

And then today I saw a lovely little workshop by Scott about finding your "Creative Place" and giving us ideas on brainstorming and other things. And a piece of that I really took to heart was to just... not worry about finding "your style". That your style will come to you, and form around you, and make itself special through work. That's something I've always struggled with since my style is not something I personally find to have mass-appeal. It's not cutesy, it's not realistic, it's not, like, anime-inspired or whatever (I dunno). It's just kinda there, not that impressive. But there's no use in worrying about it. I can only go up from here and develop as an artist. Just don't sweat it! It encouraged me to try new things, new mediums, and just experiment.

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So overall, it was just a really great week. I love getting such helpful critique on how to better myself and to get encouraged on what I'm not completely screwing up, especially since the last year has been particularly difficult for me in terms of trying to understand "what I'm doing wrong". I still struggle with that.

It did make me think, though, which brings the title back into question. As artists, we don't generally like our work. I mean, we can really love it for a couple days or a month, but a lot of us ultimately think our stuff is trash after a point. We only see the flaws. We are, truly, our worst enemy.

For me, I have and do believe my work is good. It's not crap. It's not brilliant. It's just good. But it's also not really special to me. But I can't really be the judge of that.

So I ask, how good is my art, actually?
Is it better than what I think?
Is there something strong in it that you can see and I just can't?
Is it unique in any way, like recognizing it in a crowd?
 Did my work used to have a quality and I lost it?
Was there something I did before that was great and I left it behind?
Is there something I could push to reach that next level?

Why stop the reviews now? Please give your feedback! It would mean the world to me.

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But yes, that was my week. No regrets! Thank you all for listening and being amazing and supportive :heart:
~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: The Adventure Zone
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: The Last Guardian
  • Eating: Poptarts
  • Drinking: Coffee

The Obligatory Yearly Review Journal

Journal Entry: Fri Dec 30, 2016, 2:51 AM

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Whoo boy! Everyone's been making one, and you bet I'm gonna join the parade too! So here's some end of the year wrap-up and looking onto next year.

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First things first, the thing that's most important: The Selection.

The prologue sketches are COMPLETE! And the next 4 pages of Chapter 2 are inked save a couple panels! The problem, as I came to find out, was I had no access to a scanner. My dad apparently lost the chord? I... honestly don't know. But without a chord I couldn't do anything about it. So this is, unfortunately, why I could not update this week. But there is GOOD NEWS! I'll be heading back to my usual place and can scan things in easy peasy! So I MIGHT be able to successfully update NEXT week.

I say "might" only because there's a few things blocking the way. One is that my mom is staying with me for a few so I might not have as much time to freely work before my classes start.

And when my classes start I'm pretty much going to be dead.

This in itself comes with good AND bad news. The good? The classes are awesome! I got 2 of my favorite professors and the syllabi appear like the classes are going to be a hell of a lot of fun! Creative and challenging assignments await. I gotta redesign some more characters, do more comics, apparently illustrate a Spongebob script??? I'm down!

Sadly, though, it's going to be, as I said, murder. And I will be dead. My very first weekend already has me booked for 80+ sketches. After that it'll only get worse. This means it's going to be one of those quarters where you're likely not going to be seeing much from me. Every ounce of my art time is going to be on school stuff. I'll probably decide to just post that stuff on here anyway to make up for it and keep something flowing. I'm taking a risk this quarter because I'm supposed to only be taking 2 classes instead of the 3 I am, but I wanna try it out. If I could survive Intro... I can survive anything. I hope.

BUT what this means is, if I can't find time this first week or this weekend to color the comics, well, I don't know when I will. This is why I'm going to try my best to get them done before all the shenanigans start. Wish me luck!

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So with that down, now to talk about this year and the upcoming year!

Let's get the bad out first... 2016 cons:
• My grandmother died. I no longer have any grandparents left and that's... depressing.
• I permanently stopped being friends with someone I was very close to.
• I went through a hell of a lot of self-doubt, questioning, and disappointment with my art and future. I relied too much on seeing the numbers and took it personally.
• The realization my dog is getting old and I may not see him again hit me hard and still makes me sad.
• My mom went through a hell of a lot of shit this year. Like. Just so much shit. It sucked.
• My fish died and I decided to stop having fish cause I love them too much.
• 2016 just effin' needed to stop.

Now... 2016 PROS:
• My dog got to make it to another Christmas which made me very happy. He has gotten 1 million kisses!!
• I FINISHED PICARD: A Man and His Boy!! I started it in 2013 and it's awesome I finished it because I don't finish many stories! Now... to rewrite it!
• I got closer to some cool friends and it's GREAT! You know who you are!
• Despite all the doubts, I also have gotten a lot of positive self-reflecting. I'm feeling prouder of where I'm going! While numbers are a necessity, I try to not revolve my attention around them. Numbers are just numbers.
• School is freakin' awesome. GOD I LOVE SCAD SEQA DEPARTMENT Y'ALL
The Selection. Got. A buffer. A BUFFER. I have never had a buffer! This is a BIG DEAL!!
• I got a plant son instead of fish and it's still alive!
• I finished a bunch of games and tv shows. Something I never do. A MIRACLE!

So now there is 2017!

I'm keeping my goals loose but here are the basics I'm looking forward to:
• More TS updates! More buffers!! MORE!!
• ^Especially the new prologue. I still would like it done by the end of January but if not, then within the first quarter minimum. By Spring Break latest!
• More merchandise for cons! Prints! Misc things?? Stickers, buttons, the whole shebang!
• Update more on ALL my sites! Keep up a frequency!
• Continue working hard at school and improving my skills! I'm growing so much and it's awesome!

Misc goals:
• Do more adoptables and YCHs.
• Finish more illustrations.
• Get better at Watercolors!!
• Maybe finish the script for my Picard project?
• Do more storyboard/animatics/pmvs cause they are insanely fun!!

Because I'm going to be annoying about it, if you haven't already check out my latest vid!
PICARD: An Elf Adventure (Please watch!) by AlfaFilly

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That is all for now!
Onward to the new year!
~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: Trolls Soundtrack
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Dead Rising 2 (aka Dad Rising)
  • Eating: HUNGRY
  • Drinking: h2O & Sprite

Personal Statement + Updates

Journal Entry: Fri Dec 9, 2016, 8:32 PM

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Greetings! I wanna say something a bit personal this journal to clear things up in addition to give everyone some updates on general things for this month/the remainder of this year!

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First off, I need to state something a little personal. This isn't brought on by any one person but a couple people in the past. I wanna make myself super clear on this, despite that it's a bit awkward.

That being, I am not currently interested in pursuing a relationship.

Yes, I have had people ask both offline and online and it's really just not something I'm interested in. So please don't try, it's extremely uncomfortable to me.

As it's said between myself and StupidShepherd "We're married, we live in the same house." So I'm off the market. Please and Thank you. 8)

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Secondly, the plans for the month! Since my quarter is over, albeit a bit late due to the extension, I wanna give some soft deadlines for things to get done before I start my next quarter in January!

The Selection will attempt to be updated on time. The next page will for-sure be up next week, after that I need to restart my buffer! So I'll be working on that the next couple weeks. I brought all my supplies so everything should be good there. If there's a skipped update it's only because I couldn't manage to do as much cause of Christmas shenanigans.

I also will be doing some misc things like doing the raffle prize for cutie-pink, entering a couple contests, hosting some more streams, and hopefully finishing up some illustrations. I'd also like to start work on a semi-big project due next year that I wanna start concepting out (also for a contest, technically). I really wish I could draw gifts for people this year, but I can't see me having time for that, sadly. :c

In terms of commissions, I still want them closed but I will be working on some YCHs here and there. Usually I post them to FA first, but I'll post them here as well since I'm trying to be more productive on all my sites. I need to start saving up for next year's conventions!

If I have time, I also wanna do more work on the new TS prologue. I'll try doing that between current pages. I want that completed early next year (before the end of January preferably).

Lastly, I'll be posting up an ad for selling some of my mini-comics tomorrow! I was going to do it tonight but it's gotten too late. So expect that then!

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Also I saw Trolls and Moana this week. Too many songs stuck in my head.
~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: Trolls Soundtrack
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Dead Rising 2 (aka Dad Rising)
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: h2O


Journal Entry: Sat Nov 19, 2016, 8:19 PM

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Greetings all!

I wrote this up on Tumblr the other day and am slowly spreading the message around to all my sites. Starting now-ish I'll be uploading more frequently and consistently to all my sites.

Originally each of my online places had unique purposes. Tumblr was for WIPs and doodles, deviantART was for refined pieces and my comic, FurAffinity was for refined pieces and commissions, Instagram was for traditional-only doodles, and Twitter... is... a place. I did that with the intention that each place would be different to give people more incentive to follow me there and to keep me organized. I've done it for awhile now but it just hasn't come off as successfully as I wanted it to. I feel so separated from all the communities doing this. So from now on I'm going to essentially mirror all my work everywhere.

This way you guys who don't have certain sites aren't missing out on much. I'm sure there will still be exclusive things from time to time (my comic will stay on here and my other sites will just get the preview) but overall I'm going to try to post the same stuff everywhere.

I'm hoping this will make me seem more active since I've found myself way too many times neglecting a specific site or two because I just don't have anything to post there.

This is... really weird to me? I don't know why and it probably sounds silly. But back in the "olden days" of my time here on dA I would post literally anything. Doodles, WIPs, crappy pics, good pics, comics, everything. After a point dA became my "srs" gallery and I put everything else in other places. However, since dA seems to have fallen out with a lot of people (so many people now have migrated to Instagram and Twitter. People are even leaving Tumblr it seems) I feel like there's no point in keeping it so uptight anymore. It should be a fun place!

However, it's also awkward for me because I get strangely embarrassed posting "crappier" art pieces here now. As if people will judge my overall artistic merit on a couple less-than pieces. It's really silly but it's how I feel.

BUT ALAS I am going to fight it and try to post more, regardless of what it is. I'll try using my Scraps more for this, so if you're interested in that you should turn that on for me if you haven't already.

Also, because my banners up above still aren't updated, here are all my other sites:
FurAffinity | Tumblr | YouTubeWeasyl | Twitter | Instagram

Anyway, let me know what you think of that.
Have a delightful Thanksgiving to my American peeps! I will be... here at SCAD for that. Because thanks Hurricane for extending my school quarter.
~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: That's My Girl - Fifth Harmony
  • Reading: A bunch of Superman crap
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Amnesia with Pyro
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Coffee

Minicomics Expo SUCCESS!

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 5, 2016, 7:52 PM

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Greetings everyone! Today was the minicomics expo at my school and it went GREAT!

I managed to make back the money I put into printing and honestly I didn't expect that at all! I learned quite a bit, met some awesome people, and had a lot of fun. The turn out wasn't quite as big as last year (why I don't know) but there were still a good 100-200 people there. All my friends sold well too! It was the perfect first con for me I think. I handled the money fairly well and thanks to my table partner I was able to sell even more since she helped me work the Square. Seeing everyone come by my table and look through my stuff and say kind things was really inspiring. Honestly, I had a blast!

I'm considering selling my stock here too before I take them to FWA and Swarmcon next year. Would anyone be interested? I'll be uploading an ad later on, but here are some samples:

I also did a few original pieces while I was behind the table that I have left!

Considering I didn't have much fan art, I was pleased people still bought my stuff! Guess that goes to show you don't always need that, eh? Definitely would like to experiment more next time, maybe with some generic trinkets and some fan arts. I'll have to brainstorm!

P.S. Everyone REALLY liked Spirit and Mynnie Pickleweasel360! They got endless compliments. I put a little ad for you on my table. ;)

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With this over with, I can finally focus on other things! I'm a bit behind in NaNoWriMo but I'll catch up, I'm sure. I always do. But the homework list I have... that's... kinda scary...

I have to storyboard a script of The Simpsons. On-Model. 75 boards. Oh my.

So to say the least, you still won't be hearing from me for awhile. I'll reply to all my messages soon!

In honor of turning back the clocks tonight, have this video:

~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: Eye to Eye - Goofy Movie
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Pyro play Goat Simulator
  • Playing: The Forest (aka Forest Dads)
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Coffee

Hurricane Evacuation Insanity

Journal Entry: Tue Oct 11, 2016, 4:57 PM

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UPDATE: Back in the apartment and everything is good! Place is in tact, fridge contents... not so much. BUT otherwise we made it back and things are returning to normal! Huzzah!

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Greetings all! This week has been absolutely nuts. Time to talk about it!

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First things first, check out my old pal FeralGator's commissions since she's going through some issues right now. Worth a signal boost until things can get back on track!

[ Her Journal Here ]

Emergency Commissions - CLOSED by FeralGator

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Now for other shenanigans, I'm sure some folks may have heard about hurricane Matthew hitting the east coast of the US. I was, unfortunately, affected by this. It's hilarious, in a way: I am used to hurricanes where I live in Florida, but didn't expect to run into any while in my college town of Georgia. But, sure enough, here comes Matthew.

StupidShepherd and I were going to sit tight during it but we decided to evacuate last minute out of paranoia. We left Thursday night around 10:30 pm and headed to Atlanta to stay with AlfaDoggy. Just kinda hung around with our two cats until Sunday. SCAD had, thankfully, kept us updated constantly throughout the week. They had evacuated all students to the Atlanta campus the same Thursday. Originally we were supposed to return Wednesday and continue on as usual but because Savannah was under-prepared, well, that didn't happen. School's cancelled all week. SOOO since my home in FL is just 5 hours from Atlanta, we decided to come home for the rest of the time. Which is where I am now.

As far as we know, power hasn't fully returned to the city and the whole place is a wreck. We don't currently know the state of our apartment but considering we haven't gotten any calls telling us it's been flattened we assume it's good. We will find out this weekend when we travel back. And prepare to completely wipe out our fridge... that we just restocked... after Tropical Storm Hermine killed everything in it this summer... ugh.

But what's important is we are safe, the kitties are safe, and we are in a place comfortable enough to continue school work. Deadlines have been postponed, obviously, but it's best to get things done anyway.

The crappy part now is that SCAD extended the quarter an extra week, which conflicts with Thanksgiving. Essentially we will go until the Wednesday before Thanksgiving, drive aaalllll 7 hours to Florida for the weekend, then drive aaallll 7 hours back to Georgia for 1 single Finals week. I'm pissed. Everyone is pissed. But what can you do, ya know? 2016 is a shitty year, might as well go out with a bang!

But all the negatives aside, things are still going well. Stuff's getting done, thing's are looking fairly good, can't complain too much. That's life! It's an adventure.

That's about all I can say for now. Got TS pages 25-26 in queue and 27-29 are lined and waiting for color. Progress! Progress! Now I need to catch up on convention prep...

~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: Nothing
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: The Mist & AHS: Hotel
  • Playing: The Forest (aka Forest Dads)
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Sprite

A Lot of Things

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 18, 2016, 6:57 PM

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Greetings again everyone. A lot has happened lately, as many know. I feel writing about it may help a bit.

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First and foremost comes the unfortunate, though predicted death of my grandmother. I'm doing alright now, though the timing of everything could not have been worse. She passed two Saturdays ago but the funeral home was so swamped they couldn't hold the funeral until the following Friday and Saturday. My dad had surgery Friday. I had to leave Thursday.

I wasn't able to go, obviously, and neither could my dad. Thankfully my mom had other relatives there with her (I have no siblings). I don't mind having not went since there's a lot of heated turmoil between our family and the other side of our family that had taken care of my Granny and I 100% know I wouldn't have been able to control myself. I really don't like funerals anyway. I would rather mourn privately and remember my loved ones as they once were. Still, that week was an emotional roller coaster.

For my Granny... she was a simple and sweet woman. She wasn't very exciting, a bit of an introvert, and not very independent. She loved to cook, though, and I will always fondly remember her homemade meals and I have learned a couple dishes from her I'll always continue to cook. What really strikes me hard on this death, however, is the fact I spent a massive portion of my life around her and my PawPaw (who died years ago, and whom I wrote about here on dA too when he passed). Before I entered school the two of them took care of me when my parents worked. When I started school I would go home to their house (which is right down the road from us). I really remember it fondly in middle school when I would ride the bus home there. Every single school day for more years than I can count. And even the weekends after.

It's just kind of hard realizing all this.

Someone else I really want to dedicate to is my other grandmother, my Granny Lois, who passed 2 years ago. I didn't write about her I think because I was still in a bit of denial. She lived away from us but always visited every single Christmas and sometimes other holidays and times of the year. She died of liver cancer due to complications from Hep C. My Granny Lois was nothing like my Granny. She was outgoing, constantly on the move, and could do it all alone without fear. She was fairly educated and could do math in her head faster than anyone. She knew every single one of my friends by their nickname, even my online ones (which still blows my mind). She couldn't cook at all and she was a little bit snooty at times, especially regarding dogs. She really wasn't a fan of pets and their odors. But damn, she was an incredible woman. Even up to when she died she was the same person. She was strong and beautiful and loved God more than anyone (she read the entirety of the bible more than anyone else I know). When the cards she used to always send me stopped when she died it felt alien. And I don't think I really realized it was real and that she was and is truly gone until my Granny died.

I hadn't seen my Granny in 5 years because of the hate I had for the side of my family taking care of her, but I don't regret that. I want to remember her before her Dementia took over and she became someone else.
For my Granny Lois, I want to remember her the way she was the last time I saw her, our last Christmas.

I love the fond memories I have of everyone. Them, my Pawpaw, my Aunt Sadie, my Uncle Gene.
Death really sucks. But you can't stop it. It simply is.
I'll be okay, and I know my mom will be okay, but she's still hurting now and I worry about her while I'm away from home.


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At current I'm doing okay. School is back in session and things are going alright so far. My schedule is relatively loose so it's not an extremely heavy workload.
I am, however, finding myself stressing out over miscellaneous things, particularly con prep. I am really contemplating not doing it at all, but I'm trying to stay positive. I am not planning on selling a lot, just a couple comics (it's just a 4 hour expo so I'm not going to go crazy) most of which are already done or need tiny adjustments. I'm just nervous is all, I guess. My mind's all over the place right now.

On top of that, I've been having a lot of horrible neck/back pain lately. I think it's stress-induced and all in my head, but god does it hurt. I have been living on heating pads and microwaveable corn bags this week. Drawing isn't super painful but it is a nuisance. I'm pretty much just bearing through it and trying to focus on my work and ignoring it to see if it fades off.

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All that aside, The Selection is still staying on course and I'm going to continue working on new pages coming up.
NaNo is also coming up and idk what I'm doing for that yet. I am thinking about skipping it this year but... I also really enjoy it so. I dunno. We'll see!

Thank you all for your patience and support. Gotta keep truckin'!

~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: YouTube Playlists
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: One Punch Man
  • Playing: Alien: Isolation
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: h2O

Pre-Quarter Updates + Vent

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 31, 2016, 10:20 PM

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Greetings again everyone!
In a little over a week I'll be heading back to my college town and starting my next quarter of school. I have no idea how busy things will be so I'll have to figure that out in time, but until then here's an update on the current situation, including The Selection news!

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First things first, I have 4 The Selection pages completed and waiting to be posted. I have another set of 3 currently being sketched. The new 6-page prologue is also underway. So to say a lot is going on with it would be true!

I will be changing the update schedule from weekends to Wednesdays since that's "New Comic Day" in the industry so that's kinda neat, eh? Not to mention I used to update on Wednesdays long ago.

Schedule will stick to biweekly (every other week) as it was before, except this time it will actually update biweekly unlike before where it was hit or miss! I haven't decided on the exact date it will start yet, but it will be either September 14th or September 21st. I chose this since my quarter will be starting then and it'll get me settled in on my change of schedule. This means I can guarantee updates to stay on-time during the months of September and October! With immense hope I will be able to get the next set done next 2 months which would enable updates into December! I can't promise this yet, though, but I'm really hoping! Cross your fingers!

I'm still kind of astonished I managed to make this buffer. I've never had one over 2 pages before! I know it doesn't seem like much, but this is a new thing for me. And I couldn't be more proud of my achievements, even if they are rather weak!

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Now onto the less pleasant side of things...

Things here in my personal life have been a little... sad. My granny, whom I have mentioned on here awhile back, is ill again. I don't wanna go into all the details, but she is now going to be taken care of by Hospice. If you don't know what this means, it's that she'll likely be passing very soon.

I'm not that upset about this for a lot of reasons I don't want to detail out online. The easiest way I can put it is I loved my granny, but once she got diagnosed with Dementia she changed as a person. So I have already grieved over her because to me she has already passed on. She is now nothing more than a vegetable being kept alive by medicine. I am more concerned over my mom. She has been having it rough this month and honestly that is where my concern mostly resides. So if you are a praying person, please consider her in your thoughts and prayers :heart:

I will, of course, mention if anything final happens.
I would like to make one request though: please do not comment saying "I know how you feel. I have a relative that died/has dementia/got hurt/etc." It's a personal pet peeve of mine and I hope you can respect that I do not wish to hear that.

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The next bit of vent is a strange one to put into words, and I'm sorry it's going to be very long and rambly. I wrote about it briefly on Tumblr, but put simply I've been thinking a lot about the future.

My "dream job" is to make profit selling my own work. Have you ever seen the webcomic artists with the Patreons that successfully make a living wage? The folks who have to list slots for commissions because people flock to them, and sometimes they sell out in an hour or less? Ideally, it would be fantastic to reach that goal one day.

I don't have big dreams like I used to about working for a company, seeing my name in a big project. If I got the opportunity I would join it, of course, with no hesitation. It would be a great honor! But as far as that being my dream? Not at all. I would be happiest drawing my own things, writing my own stories to entertain everyone, to make people think, to make people happy who read my stuff. I just want all my hard work to pay off in being enjoyable and inspiring to others. If I can make enough money by doing that to live semi-comfortably, that'll be an awesome achievement. If I have to juggle that and a regular job that'll be totally fine too. Because I don't have any other aspirations. There are no other jobs or careers out there for me. I get jealous of folks who can do art as a hobby and have a career doing something more logical, but... I wasn't given that. And believe me, I have tried forcing these career ideas onto myself before to little affect.

So this is my dream... but the reality is I can't achieve it. Not like I am doing now.
I'm a realist. I think logically. I know that at the moment I am not remotely doing enough to make this a reality. The reason artists can make this happen is because they constantly update: That is literally the last thing I do. I am hoping with this current method of doing comics I can achieve this and start work to build up. In addition, I just need to keep expanding my skills, to practice new things, to just make and produce better artwork. Right now I really don't do that, and it's upset me realizing it. I have been learning so much in my school and I feel that through it I will get better at these skills. The only issue is the school itself is preventing me from doing it due to time. But I think, and hope, after it's all over it'll be worth it. I learn more and more every quarter. Thus far, I have not regretted a thing!

But the thought of all this is overwhelming. I grasp the idea I have been lazy and slacking the last few years. I know I need to do better, to put in more effort, to work harder in order to achieve my goal. I am aware my art style and stories are not appealing to the general market and that is not something I want to change, which means my efforts must be doubled to play catch-up. There's just so much I have to prepare for that it's taking over my mind and stressing me out. But I suppose that's life. You either get something good by luck or working hard, or both. You can't be expected to have things handed to you, and frankly it wouldn't be fair if it did!

I was losing a lot of spirit lately until I posted up my "Lanivian" Hybrids Explained chart. I did not expect people to actually care about that at all, which was why I did not put an extreme amount of effort into it. But the response to it really blew me away! It's not much, of course, in comparison to, say, the folks out there who get 100+ favorites on things, but to have so many people genuinely seem to care about the decade+ worth of work I have done to develop my species, stories, and worlds is so powerfully heartwarming. Whenever I get upset thinking about how my comic has been going on for all the years but barely has enough pages to be worthy of it, my friends remind me that despite all that I still have readers. That people have stuck with me for years. My 10 Year Raffle journal alone... hearing all the stories of people having been with me this entire decade, dealing with me just farting around and trying to find myself through art. It's... it's really crazy.

I may not have a large following, not by comparison to other artists between here, Instagram, Tumblr, and beyond, but I think I have some of the damn finest individuals! Each one of you is awesome. As I wrote on Tumblr, I get a little upset at the idea that, by making art my career and gaining more followers, I will in turn eventually lose that individual communication. But then I look at, say, big YouTubers like Jackcepticeye who still manages to try with his fans. But, well, talking about that honestly is a little weird and makes me feel rather egotistical. I can't even fathom the idea of ever reaching such stature. I never did my comic for fame, I did it cause I loved the community and making friends. And when it all comes down to it, that's what makes me happy.

Will that concept fight against me wanting to do art as a career? I dunno. It's a complicated question, and not one I think can be answered until it happens--if it ever does.

So for now, I'm just trying to take it all slowly, both to figure things out and also just to not overwork myself. Just thinking about it all, and doing the little I have been doing, is stressful and I need to not throw everything on myself at once like I've been doing. I'll take it all one step at a time and see how it goes. I'm still young and got years ahead of me; let's not put the cart before the horse right?

Sorry this is all so long. When it comes down to it, all I want to say is thank you to everyone who I call a friend or supporter. I hope to do better for you all in the future, and will be trying my best to meet my goals. I want things to change for the better! 

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~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: Game Grumps
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: YouTube Videos
  • Playing: Far Cry 4
  • Eating: HUNGRY
  • Drinking: h2O

10 Year Anniversary RAFFLES!

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 7, 2016, 6:17 PM

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And the winners have been chosen! I used a Random Number Generator to pick the numbers and the results are:

The winner of the Comic Strip is:

#20 :iconcutie-pink:!!

The winner of the Illustration is:

#15 :iconrojurou:!!

Please note me with what you'd like! Thanks so much for entering everyone! I'm definitely going to be holding these more often! :heart:

10 Year Anniversary RAFFLES!

To celebrate my 10 year anniversary here in deviantART (seriously 10 years?? That's insane!) I want to give back to you guys and hold a raffle to get yourself some art! I've been here on deviantART so long and have seen a lot change over the years. I have seen so many artists come and go, have made friends and lost friends, have been through fandoms and left fandoms, and went through more projects and art styles than I can name. Through the majority of my time here I have been producing comics. Even back in my Invader Zim fandom days I was making comics and, though they never went very far, it's something that has simply always been. The Selection has been with me since 2008: that's 80% of my time here!! I know a lot of you guys follow me for it and I want to thank you for putting up with me and constantly inspiring me to keep going! Although I do my artwork for myself and my own enjoyment, doing these comics and seeing your dedication and reaction is what keeps me going. I highly doubt this comic would still be alive now had it not been for you!

But even if you don't follow me for my comics and do for my art or my OCTs or whatever else, you do exactly the same. I have met so many friends here, have had awesome conversations, and have learned a lot. You all are amazing, even if you never or seldom comment: I know a lot of you care and have expressed it so never feel pressured to comment or fav. Just knowing you watch me because you liked something I did is enough!


The person who is selected for this raffle will win a single comic strip featuring your own characters and story! It will be a 4 panel-max (it can be less than 4) comic—fully colored! It will follow the format of my New Kids on the Block strips:

New Kids on the Block - #1 by AlfaFilly
New Kids on the Block - #3 by AlfaFilly
New Kids on the Block - #4 by AlfaFilly


You must be watching me.
This is going to be a specific rule, as I will not accept your entry if you watch me after I post this journal! This is only fair to all the people who have watched me prior to this raffle. This also prevents people from watching me just for the raffle and unwatching me later. If you happen to watch me after this journal, don't worry though, keep reading till the end for your chance!

You have to have a script and characters ready to be drawn!

What this means is you have to know exactly what you want drawn panel-for-panel. You can be vague on expressions/poses but things like actions and dialogue must be pre-written and confirmed. I will not draw for you if you don't have this prepped! It's time-consuming and stressful scripting for others (it's hard enough doing it for myself) and I don't want to have to do that. So get those ideas ready!


Second raffle! This is for a digital illustration of 1-2 characters:

DELIGHT! by AlfaFilly
Sweet Sweater Snuggles by AlfaFilly


Be watching me!
That's all! You can be watching me for 10 years, 5 years, or even 1 day. It's all good!
You can watch me after this journal for this one!


Comment on this journal telling me who your favorite character of mine is!
This confirms you have ready the rules! If you don't have a favorite/don't know my characters just say so! That counts!

I will keep this entry period open until the morning of MONDAY JULY 18TH! So start plotting your strip script or choosing your characters! You can use your own characters, fandom characters, or even my characters (or your characters with my characters!), whatever goes! Of course, there will be some things I won't do and generally they should follow the rules of my Commissions ToS: AlfaFilly's Terms of Service (Basically no porn and no fetishy stuff aha) If I don't want to draw your idea I am allowed to decline it! I'll give you a second shot if you win, so it never hurts to think of a backup if you fear your idea is sketchy.


You do NOT have to post your idea/script/characters in the comments! Just start thinking of it is all!
You absolutely do not have to make a journal/spread this around/etc like some raffles require. Just comment and you're golden!

I will give every commenter a number. When the raffle ends I will use a number generator to pick the 2 winners!

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GOOD LUCK everyone and have fun! Thank you all so much for supporting me and keep being amazing! <3

~*~Filly B.~*~

  • Listening to: Close - Nick Jonas Ft. Tove Lo
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: YouTube Videos
  • Playing: Far Cry 4
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: h2O